im sorry girl it has to be way. it was never my intention to do it. i regretted. and i know whatever happen i can never take it back. it felt like backstabbing my own kind. and if i were in yr place, i'm sure i'll beat the hell out of you.and the bf too. but yr bf nvr just seem to care. but come to think again.he's a guy. guys will always be guys.till then

love is deceiving.

1st stage submission is due today, managed to get a 1 hr sleep b4 class starts. Went to class and the lecturers told us to submt the plan on thursday. argh! tot of enjoying my holiday, but they extend the submission until after hols. somehow its good and its bad.. im starting to have feelings for someone  who has a gf. well, i still have feelings for am you know, the thing is.. this person have been there for me every time i need him ,he always finds a way to cheer me up. everyday he draws a "lucky charms" on my hand. draws little cute cartoons for me saying good luck. i just can resist him. i just cant. i tried. but im still trapped. i wanted to stay away from him, but i cant its just too hard.i try to put myself in his gf's place if she founds out abt me and him. i know how it feels. i really do. we kinda fought today because of a silly mistake and misunderstanding between us. he decided to take it seriously, not like he used to. maybe he just realize that he has a gf, or maybe its just a sign for me to just stay away from him.. sigh.. i think i just want to stay away from him...yes i know, and i'll try.

 im confused, am's been texting me saying how much he misses being my boyfriend. but i had it enough with his sorry and forget attitude. i've given him a thousand chances before. but he still is the same little naive boy, that doesnt want to change.i still love him, yes i do. a 40 months relationship with countless memories between us.. i miss every single thing abt tht. reminiscing those time.. another sigh..

“I like fashion to go down to the street, but I can't accept that it should originate there."
coco chanel

gaaaah! cant believe i have to spend my weekends here in perak. for the first time ok this sem! i miss my mummy's cooking, my daddy's car...
geramnyee... its been 2 weeks now not going home.last week cudnt go back to shah alam because i have an academic trip to malacca, to do research on hotels and galleries. malacca was hella fun! ive been happy since that day.. at last i can actually put my mind off am. im still waiting am, but, i need my space. sorry. we're still friends right? BFF! yeah! sep skit.


p/s : can't wait for term break next weeek! woohooo!

*will update with pictures later.

just got back from uitm. perak is hot like hell, and that cause me breakouts! ergh!  1 more semester to go before practical. no more perak after this.hee..

last mnth i went to sabah for my holiday trip.the trip was OK. the food was super yummayh. the squids the prawns the fishes. veerrrry fresh!
super nice too. but theres nthg much in KK tht we can do plus it was a short trip, 3 days and 2 nights. the best thing we did was going for snorkelling at manukan island! gosh! the sea is sooo beauutiful. the water is very clear and very blue-ey.hehehe..didnt get anything because theres nthg much u can buy except for keychains and pearls which doesnt seem to intrest me.ok ,the worst part is where, when i got back home, i was all pretty excited of uploading the pictures into facebook, suddenly, the card reader cant seem to read my memory card, tried using the cable camera but failed too. tried asking the kodak place to print them out, but they cant either.theres nthg much i can do abt it but to format the memory card! it was devastating as i was looking forward to edit the sea views pictures in photoshop! :'( geram and rase cam nak nangis pun ade. but well,its fated to be that way. sigh..at least i have like 10 pictures, tht is in my phone.

i have only like what? RM7 in my purse? ok.its not even funny anymore. i hate how i cant control myself of buying and buying and still buying stuff even im on my way to the last cents..*grrrrrrr* i dnt knw how can i go online without surfing through ebays and other sorts of e-shopping. its like an addiction u know? and once you saw some pretty nice stuff. u ended up reserving and buying them. and i havent shopped at shopping malls YET! im hating myself now. i soo neeeed to clear up some of my unused item, sell em! so i'll get extra money huh? remind me not to use it for online shopping please.

Part 1 : On the outside 

Name : Fazila bt Mohd Said 
Date of Birth : 9th Sept
Current Status : urmm..
Eye Colour : dark est brown
Hair Colour : just blackened it yesterday
Righty or Lefty : righty
Zodiac Sign : virgo
Part 2 : On the Inside 

Your Heritage : Malay
Your Fear :  the last day on earth!
Your Weakness : giving in

Part 3 : Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : where's my phone?
Your bedtime : 2 am - 4am, that should explain why i have dark circles!
Your most missed memory : cnt think of one rght now!

Part 4 : Your Pick 

Pepsi or Coke : pepsi
McD's or Burger King : burger king!
Single or Group Dates : single dates
Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea : nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla : both please! :)
Cappuccino or Coffee : kapucino! :p


Part 5 : Do You.. 

Smoke : yes,no
Curse : yes
Drink : no

Part 6 : In the Past Month 

Drank alcohol :nope
To the mall : yes
Been on stage : none
Eaten sushi : yes
Dyed your hair : yes

Part 7 : Have You Ever? 

Played a stripping game : no
Changed who you were to fit in : no

Part 8 : Age 

You're hoping to be married : yeah

Part 9 : In A Guy/Girl 

Best Eye colour : brown
Hair colour : black.
Short or long hair : short

Part 10 : What Were You Doing? 

1 minute ago : this thing
1 hour ago : taking pictures
1 month ago : cnt recall
1 year ago : hermmm

Part 11 : Finish The Sentences 

I love : you
I feel :  restless
I need : the mny

Part 12 : Tag 6 People : 

anyone who's up to it! :D

List out 5 presents you wish for : 

a new handbag
tonnes of clothes
dslr
a new laptop
must be the money!

im all bored now. my laptop rosak.have to go and reformat it.holiday is abit boring this time, since am broke his shoulder, most of our plans are cancelled.no sunway lagoon, no genting. so we replace it with going to the zoo negara or butterfly park or aquaria.i dont know.all i did was wasting money online. and go out. dont know where to. im broke as hell now.i'll start working tomorrow, which i have to finish my dad's ISO thingy.so i'll have money for my penang trip this coming june. weeee..cant wait! oh oh, i want a ferret . they're the cutest thing i've ever seen. the price is also amazingly cute-lah kan.. each cost around RM750. hermm.. :(.. too expensive for me.waay over budget.haha..

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add me up ppl.
:))

my last paper was on friday and it ended at 4.45pm. right after i've done with my paper, i rushed to my room, packed things up and i drove back to kl. reached kl around 8.30. picked up am and his friend, went to secret recipe to buy adeq's birthday cake. reached pd around 11.00, went to the apartment first to dress-up and drove back to my friends apartment in costa rica. im staying in glory. its like a ten minute drive to marina.after adeq's suprise bday celebration then only we went to freedom festival. it was 1.00 am.*geees*.and tiesto finishes at 3am.. :(

the next day, woke up at 2pm, and meet up with the others at costa rica, we went for a lunch at nasi ayam merah kut if im not mistaken, the nasi ayam were super sedap! :). later, the guys decided to take a walk at pasar to buy stuff for munching near the sea side. the weather was hot and i was having my period pain! sangat sakit ok! lepak near the beach , take picture and stuff. i was all moody and keep grumbling because of the pain im having. so i asked am to take me back to the apartment. so i can rest before i go to marina later that night.
am bought me menstrual panadol and hot drink. i rest myself while the guys were enjoying themselves in the apartmnt, drinking and whatsoever lah. at 9pm everybody started to get ready and thats when i realise i forgot to bring my other bikini! *gRRR* so i have to wear the one i wore before.. while i was putting on my make up, am came in to the room wearing MY oversized tee. and said he wants to pinjam and wear it to tiesto. i was like "heh? you gotta be kidding"  but he wore it, konon metrosexual.. whateverrrrr...that night cosmic gate and tiesto was awesome. the amount of people is more compare to friday night. packed-lah. nak nari je org lalu. hish!

we went back at 2a.m cause iman is not feeling very well, he didnt ate anything before he go. so he keep throwing up on the way to the car.i was with him while am was waiting for others to come out. went back to the apartment and rest.woke up at 12pm the next day, and checked out!



oh ya! im still not satisfied of tiesto being in the news, wild party? party liar? erk.

just got back from PD!!! phew... friggin tired now. will update later! :D

i give A+++++ for P/s : i love you!
god! that movie made me cry all the way!!